it was after you beat the lakers and you have an e-mail or a text message from your lawyer saying it was over, and you were talking about a custody battle. that prompted you to write this book, right? >> yeah, that moment led to now where i could even talk about being a father first. even though i always thought of myself as a good father, i went through this journey for a reason. i wanted to share my experiences with so many families out there, i know a lot of families deal with a lot of things i deem with. not only as an adult. but as a kid. that's why i talked about my childhood as well. >> you, like many people have a story. and your story started with issues with your mother, issues at home. what were some of the things? >> yeah, growing up with a mom who's -- as long as i can remember was addicted to drugs, selling drugs, in and out of jail. my father, even when he was around, it got tense with him. just a different way of doing things, very strict, very militant. growing up in the city of chicago, just like any other innercity. it's exactly what it is, drugs, gangs, shootings,